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I'm Clocking Ks for R U OK?

This October, I'm joining Ks for R U OK?  

I'm taking on the challenge to strengthen connections, develop good habits, start meaningful conversations and have some fun along the way.  Because we are all worth it! 

I recently had to get real and true with myself and answer this question HONESTLY and the answer was NO...  Far from it.  Yet that simple process of getting real and honest with myself seemed to open up a jar of possibilities for me to begin to change things.

Now I’m one who truly believes in the power of energy, its language and the magical possibilities that can become available to us if we simply get honest with ourselves.   Once we admit we need help, all sorts of amazing doors just seem to show up and invite you to push them open.  Call it Magic, Coincidence, Fate or the Universe having your back, yet no matter what. you believe, your energy will set the tone of the direction you wish to head in. 

Sometimes life throws us curveballs we just don't see coming and they can throw you off your axis.

I know it did for me recently, and boy oh boy has the past  6 months been one hell of ride. 

Not only did I have to UNEXPECTALY give up everything that was my life, including all the animals in it, and all my life processions that we accumulate over the course of our life (except for the import few I could take with me),  I also moved to another state to remove myself and my boys from the situation.

With help from family and some rather amazing friends and some truly wonderful supportive new friends, we are slowly getting back on our feet and rebuilding our life in a new place away from everything we have known for the past 15 years.

I am will be forever grateful for the help I received and for the support I have had along the way, yet I did get to a point a few weeks ago that I just wasn't sure how I was going to get out of the dark hole I now found myself in mentally.

The reality of all that had transpired the prior 6 months just all seemed to land on me and I just couldn't find a way forward.  No matter how hard I tried that dark cloud just kept me couch bound and struggling to keep the tears from falling from my eyes daily.   Don't get me wrong, I cried and I cried a lot, at home, yet it just wasn't helping.  

I was still pushing through with everyday duties, and working part time keeping that smile on my face for the world outside.  I even started and stuck to a 6 week workout and healthy eating routine as well as continuing to improve my mental health with daily reading and learning, yet it all came to a point where it was like, enough is enough.   I can't do this anymore.  Whilst I never had suicidal thoughts, I definitely had those moments of what the hell is it all for.   I simply felt my courage and strength had left me some and finding the path forward was not showing up.

I was managing to get myself out for small walks and it was on one of these walks that I stumbled across a podcast with Mel Robbins where she asked 5 questions?  And it was that very first question that got me to openly admit,  I WAS NOT OK!  

So after that honesty moment, I found myself only a few days later sitting down with one of my new amazing friends Id recently made, who simply held space for and offered support for me whilst I melted down in front of her and finally let the tears and all of what Id been holding inside, spill out.   A huge weight was lifted and since then, the world has started to show up brighter for all of us daily.

Things are continuing to change and I am feeling stronger and more optimistic everyday.  Yes its still a struggle at times yet right now I am doing OK and feeling more like me again.  

So after my walk today, I am choosing to commit to this walk for October, because not only will it be a HUGE contribution to me and my body and my mental health, it also offers me the opportunity to pay it forward to others and even invite YOU to get honest with you and ask, RU OK?

If you happen to answer NO, then please reach out to someone, pick up the phone and simply chat to someone. You are so worth it. 

The resources are there for you, even if its just to get the rattling thoughts out of your head.  Visit that friend, drop into a help centre or do what ever you can, yet please reach out to someone.  You don't have to do it alone. 

I'd love you to join me or please show your support by donating.

Your support helps R U OK? to provide essential free resources to schools, workplaces, families, and communities across Australia, and empower them to start a conversation that could change the life of someone who's struggling.

By inspiring people to take the time to ask “Are you OK?” and listen, we can all help people struggling with life to feel connected long before they even think about suicide.

#Ksforruok